Dec 19, 2017

Working on Self-Confidence & Another Holiday Outfit

Oh my goodness... only 6 days left until Christmas! I can't believe 2017 is coming to an end so soon, but I say this towards the end of every year. Since I've only found casual outfits for the holidays, I wanted to find something a bit more dressy. I usually avoid skirts because of my huge belly so when I saw this skirt, I felt like there was no way it was going to look good. Welllllll I kind of love it and there is so much belly room, haha. It's super comfy and I'm able to sit without the skirt squeezing my tummy. I wore a pair of Mary Jane heels instead of the usual ankle boots to try something a little different. I wanted to add a little holiday element to it since I didn't have any red or green on me so I added this deer necklace to complete the look. Wahoo! 

I have to admit that when I put on clothes I don't feel cute or confident at all. Even today I stared at myself in the mirror for maybe 45 minutes contemplating whether to go out or not. My stomach looked extra huge from the side and my back rolls were evident in the turtle neck. I had to push those negative thoughts out and just force myself to go outside. Thank goodness for my sister (my photographer) who is always so supportive and understanding of me. I finally decided to "just do it" despite feeling self-conscious.

I think this gets a tiny bit easier each time I shoot for the blog... and this is what motivates me to keep going. I've wanted to blog for soooo long but never did because I was too embarrassed of my weight. I kept telling myself I would blog (and basically anything else in life) after I lost a lot of weight. I am trying to break away from that mentality and I think I've already made some progress. When I was 200 lbs before, I would have NEVER dressed up and posted these kinds of pictures. I absolutely HATED looking in the mirror and I never wanted to be photographed. That's a place I never want to return to!! And this is why instead of making weight-loss a priority, I'm focusing on self-love and self-acceptance... in this 200 pound body. I'm also slowly working on living healthier and hopefully weight-loss will happen as a result butttttt if it doesn't, I want to still be happy 

Size Reference
Height: 5'2"
Weight: 200 lbs
Turtleneck: Size 12
Skirt: Size 14

Outfit Details
Turtleneck: Here
Skirt: Here
Shoes: Here
Necklace: Here

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